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IMPRESSIONS
Kyson's work moved us deeply. Honest, sincere, touching.
Maurizio & Zaya Benazzo
Directors of 'The Wisdom of Trauma' with Gabor Matè. Founders of the Science and Non-Duality
It is no small thing to create such beauty—the deep kind that resonates, stirs, moves, and heals.
John & Margi Dehlin
Founders & Hosts of Mormon Stories Podcast. Featured in HBO's Believer documentary.
Incredible. No notes. A timeless story. Super rare. Bravo.
Nicholas Maher
Filmmaker / Creative Director at Rivian
2X Vimeo Staff Picks winner
Kyson's work moved us deeply. Honest, sincere, touching.
Maurizio & Zaya Benazzo
Directors of 'The Wisdom of Trauma' with Gabor Matè. Founders of the Science and Non-Duality
It is no small thing to create such beauty—the deep kind that resonates, stirs, moves, and heals.
John & Margi Dehlin
Founders & Hosts of Mormon Stories Podcast. Featured in HBO's Believer documentary.
Incredible. No notes. A timeless story. Super rare. Bravo.
Nicholas Maher
Filmmaker / Creative Director at Rivian
2X Vimeo Staff Picks winner
Kyson's work moved us deeply. Honest, sincere, touching.
Maurizio & Zaya Benazzo
Directors of 'The Wisdom of Trauma' with Gabor Matè. Founders of the Science and Non-Duality
It is no small thing to create such beauty—the deep kind that resonates, stirs, moves, and heals.
John & Margi Dehlin
Founders & Hosts of Mormon Stories Podcast. Featured in HBO's Believer documentary.
Incredible. No notes. A timeless story. Super rare. Bravo.
Nicholas Maher
Filmmaker / Creative Director at Rivian
2X Vimeo Staff Picks winner
Over 6k comments
and messages
This is the best video I’ve seen on YouTube in the last year.
I am a veteran diagnosed with PTSD. Your video touched me deeply.
This documentary feels worthy of HBO.
Tears are falling. You touched my heart.
Sometimes the algorithm presents content that cuts through the noise.
I’ve been home 35 years and tonight I finally allowed myself to grieve
I cried, in the good way. As a combat vet, I find it tragic that what you describe is disturbingly familiar.
Authenticity that is so rare these days. All from your over-sized heart. I send you thanks, respect and love. Oh, and absolutely beautifully produced.
You have truly given me a long awaited gift!
These videos is why YouTube is still a beautiful medium.
Your story helped me see how to speak to my past injuries.
Your story just moved me. I’m nothing less than speechless Kyson.
Your story has touched me deeply, and I smiled through my tears.
I hope your video touches those who feel alone and need comfort and help.
I don't have the words to describe how good and poignant this video was for me.
Thank you for hearing my silent screaming.
Thank you for putting your experience and your raw emotion into this gorgeously crafted video to share with the world. It has landed at least on this heart that needed it badly at exactly this moment of my life.
We all have a story to tell, but most never get told. Thank you for telling yours.
I just cried watching this. I didn’t know I was in need of this. It gives me hope.
I love so much how your videos focus on healing, and finding yourself. I’m on the same journey myself.
This one of the most powerful stories I have seen on youtube.
Wow. Brother, so much courage. Thank you.
I wish I had YouTube and your videos forty something years ago.
The house is asleep, I’m crying. This hurts so much.
I didn't realize that trusting myself is what has been happening until seeing this video. Thank you.
You know the feeling we used to call the 'spirit'? Well, I felt it watching this.
This is the most raw and inspiring autobiographical documentary I've honestly ever seen.
I deeply appreciate how bravely you're turning pain into purpose.
You are describing the journey every survivor of complex PTSD takes on the road to healing.
The house is asleep, I’m crying. This hurts so much.
Suffering causes you to examine yourself and to deepen.
I’m very touched by your story.
An incredibly beautiful, stunning, and engaging film! I broke when you arrived back from the airport.
That was so beautiful and heartbreaking. It resonated more than I expected.
Wow. You cannot imagine how listening to your story affected me as a dad.
As a police chaplain I have lots of training in PTSD. I wept when your therapist gave you permission to stop smiling.
I'm not Mormon but this resonates really in every detail.
I could feel you from here, I cried.
This is truly one of the most special, impactful and meaningful videos that I have ever watched on YouTube.
Clearly you were meant to be an artist. You are a source of inspiration.
I can't tell you how much your story moves me.
Your professionalism in the content of your video is beyond words to the point of tears.
Hearing other vulnerable stories also helps me to heal.
I could have listened to the rain in the woods for hours.
What a beautiful example of alchemizing pain into art.
This healing will ripple to so many. thank you for sharing!
You have a gift of connection that is a breath of fresh air.
To survive abuse and awaken to see truth and learn to love yourself is a tragic, yet beautiful journey.
I’m in tears. As a gay man who grew up in a family of very conservative Baptist ministers in Texas—the parts where you spoke about denying yourself for the cause really hit home.
This is truly one of the most special, impactful and meaningful videos that I have ever watched on YouTube.
A balanced video which proves faith is a journey.
I was blindsided by how hard this hit me.
OMG. I have tears rolling down my face. Words fail me. I feel your pain in ways I can't explain.
I'm in tears with no words. I'm so grateful to hear the compassion for yourself in your letter to yourself.
I want to thank you for this video. It really spoke to me and hit some really hard emotions that I am also going through right now.
As a member of the Church of Jesus Christ, I have to say I’m so grateful that you made this. Often times I hear online people just bashing the church and saying as sorts of things but you just spoke your truth.
Your beautiful storytelling is simply touching.
One of the best producers on YouTube. Thats a fact.
This is truly one of the most special, impactful and meaningful videos that I have ever watched on YouTube.
Wow just wow this is beautiful. So well said and beautiful cinematography.
I love your videos. They are my story too.
You are giving us what civilization has lost—to recognize that we are part of nature!
This has helped me so much.
This is the best video I’ve seen on YouTube in the last year.
I am a veteran diagnosed with PTSD. Your video touched me deeply.
This documentary feels worthy of HBO.
Tears are falling. You touched my heart.
Sometimes the algorithm presents content that cuts through the noise.
I’ve been home 35 years and tonight I finally allowed myself to grieve
I cried, in the good way. As a combat vet, I find it tragic that what you describe is disturbingly familiar.
Authenticity that is so rare these days. All from your over-sized heart. I send you thanks, respect and love. Oh, and absolutely beautifully produced.
You have truly given me a long awaited gift!
These videos is why YouTube is still a beautiful medium.
Your story helped me see how to speak to my past injuries.
Your story just moved me. I’m nothing less than speechless Kyson.
Your story has touched me deeply, and I smiled through my tears.
I hope your video touches those who feel alone and need comfort and help.
I don't have the words to describe how good and poignant this video was for me.
Thank you for hearing my silent screaming.
Thank you for putting your experience and your raw emotion into this gorgeously crafted video to share with the world. It has landed at least on this heart that needed it badly at exactly this moment of my life.
We all have a story to tell, but most never get told. Thank you for telling yours.
I just cried watching this. I didn’t know I was in need of this. It gives me hope.
I love so much how your videos focus on healing, and finding yourself. I’m on the same journey myself.
This one of the most powerful stories I have seen on youtube.
Wow. Brother, so much courage. Thank you.
I wish I had YouTube and your videos forty something years ago.
The house is asleep, I’m crying. This hurts so much.
I didn't realize that trusting myself is what has been happening until seeing this video. Thank you.
You know the feeling we used to call the 'spirit'? Well, I felt it watching this.
This is the most raw and inspiring autobiographical documentary I've honestly ever seen.
I deeply appreciate how bravely you're turning pain into purpose.
You are describing the journey every survivor of complex PTSD takes on the road to healing.
The house is asleep, I’m crying. This hurts so much.
Suffering causes you to examine yourself and to deepen.
I’m very touched by your story.
An incredibly beautiful, stunning, and engaging film! I broke when you arrived back from the airport.
That was so beautiful and heartbreaking. It resonated more than I expected.
Wow. You cannot imagine how listening to your story affected me as a dad.
As a police chaplain I have lots of training in PTSD. I wept when your therapist gave you permission to stop smiling.
I'm not Mormon but this resonates really in every detail.
I could feel you from here, I cried.
This is truly one of the most special, impactful and meaningful videos that I have ever watched on YouTube.
Clearly you were meant to be an artist. You are a source of inspiration.
I can't tell you how much your story moves me.
Your professionalism in the content of your video is beyond words to the point of tears.
Hearing other vulnerable stories also helps me to heal.
I could have listened to the rain in the woods for hours.
What a beautiful example of alchemizing pain into art.
This healing will ripple to so many. thank you for sharing!
You have a gift of connection that is a breath of fresh air.
To survive abuse and awaken to see truth and learn to love yourself is a tragic, yet beautiful journey.
I’m in tears. As a gay man who grew up in a family of very conservative Baptist ministers in Texas—the parts where you spoke about denying yourself for the cause really hit home.
This is truly one of the most special, impactful and meaningful videos that I have ever watched on YouTube.
A balanced video which proves faith is a journey.
I was blindsided by how hard this hit me.
OMG. I have tears rolling down my face. Words fail me. I feel your pain in ways I can't explain.
I'm in tears with no words. I'm so grateful to hear the compassion for yourself in your letter to yourself.
I want to thank you for this video. It really spoke to me and hit some really hard emotions that I am also going through right now.
As a member of the Church of Jesus Christ, I have to say I’m so grateful that you made this. Often times I hear online people just bashing the church and saying as sorts of things but you just spoke your truth.
Your beautiful storytelling is simply touching.
One of the best producers on YouTube. Thats a fact.
This is truly one of the most special, impactful and meaningful videos that I have ever watched on YouTube.
Wow just wow this is beautiful. So well said and beautiful cinematography.
I love your videos. They are my story too.
You are giving us what civilization has lost—to recognize that we are part of nature!
This has helped me so much.
This is the best video I’ve seen on YouTube in the last year.
I am a veteran diagnosed with PTSD. Your video touched me deeply.
This documentary feels worthy of HBO.
Tears are falling. You touched my heart.
Sometimes the algorithm presents content that cuts through the noise.
I’ve been home 35 years and tonight I finally allowed myself to grieve
I cried, in the good way. As a combat vet, I find it tragic that what you describe is disturbingly familiar.
Authenticity that is so rare these days. All from your over-sized heart. I send you thanks, respect and love. Oh, and absolutely beautifully produced.
You have truly given me a long awaited gift!
These videos is why YouTube is still a beautiful medium.
Your story helped me see how to speak to my past injuries.
Your story just moved me. I’m nothing less than speechless Kyson.
Your story has touched me deeply, and I smiled through my tears.
I hope your video touches those who feel alone and need comfort and help.
I don't have the words to describe how good and poignant this video was for me.
Thank you for hearing my silent screaming.
Thank you for putting your experience and your raw emotion into this gorgeously crafted video to share with the world. It has landed at least on this heart that needed it badly at exactly this moment of my life.
We all have a story to tell, but most never get told. Thank you for telling yours.
I just cried watching this. I didn’t know I was in need of this. It gives me hope.
I love so much how your videos focus on healing, and finding yourself. I’m on the same journey myself.
This one of the most powerful stories I have seen on youtube.
Wow. Brother, so much courage. Thank you.
I wish I had YouTube and your videos forty something years ago.
The house is asleep, I’m crying. This hurts so much.
I didn't realize that trusting myself is what has been happening until seeing this video. Thank you.
You know the feeling we used to call the 'spirit'? Well, I felt it watching this.
This is the most raw and inspiring autobiographical documentary I've honestly ever seen.
I deeply appreciate how bravely you're turning pain into purpose.
You are describing the journey every survivor of complex PTSD takes on the road to healing.
The house is asleep, I’m crying. This hurts so much.
Suffering causes you to examine yourself and to deepen.
I’m very touched by your story.
An incredibly beautiful, stunning, and engaging film! I broke when you arrived back from the airport.
That was so beautiful and heartbreaking. It resonated more than I expected.
Wow. You cannot imagine how listening to your story affected me as a dad.
As a police chaplain I have lots of training in PTSD. I wept when your therapist gave you permission to stop smiling.
I'm not Mormon but this resonates really in every detail.
I could feel you from here, I cried.
This is truly one of the most special, impactful and meaningful videos that I have ever watched on YouTube.
Clearly you were meant to be an artist. You are a source of inspiration.
I can't tell you how much your story moves me.
Your professionalism in the content of your video is beyond words to the point of tears.
Hearing other vulnerable stories also helps me to heal.
I could have listened to the rain in the woods for hours.
What a beautiful example of alchemizing pain into art.
This healing will ripple to so many. thank you for sharing!
You have a gift of connection that is a breath of fresh air.
To survive abuse and awaken to see truth and learn to love yourself is a tragic, yet beautiful journey.
I’m in tears. As a gay man who grew up in a family of very conservative Baptist ministers in Texas—the parts where you spoke about denying yourself for the cause really hit home.
This is truly one of the most special, impactful and meaningful videos that I have ever watched on YouTube.
A balanced video which proves faith is a journey.
I was blindsided by how hard this hit me.
OMG. I have tears rolling down my face. Words fail me. I feel your pain in ways I can't explain.
I'm in tears with no words. I'm so grateful to hear the compassion for yourself in your letter to yourself.
I want to thank you for this video. It really spoke to me and hit some really hard emotions that I am also going through right now.
As a member of the Church of Jesus Christ, I have to say I’m so grateful that you made this. Often times I hear online people just bashing the church and saying as sorts of things but you just spoke your truth.
Your beautiful storytelling is simply touching.
One of the best producers on YouTube. Thats a fact.
This is truly one of the most special, impactful and meaningful videos that I have ever watched on YouTube.
Wow just wow this is beautiful. So well said and beautiful cinematography.
I love your videos. They are my story too.
You are giving us what civilization has lost—to recognize that we are part of nature!
This has helped me so much.
This is the best video I’ve seen on YouTube in the last year.
I am a veteran diagnosed with PTSD. Your video touched me deeply.
This documentary feels worthy of HBO.
Tears are falling. You touched my heart.
Sometimes the algorithm presents content that cuts through the noise.
I’ve been home 35 years and tonight I finally allowed myself to grieve
I cried, in the good way. As a combat vet, I find it tragic that what you describe is disturbingly familiar.
Authenticity that is so rare these days. All from your over-sized heart. I send you thanks, respect and love. Oh, and absolutely beautifully produced.
You have truly given me a long awaited gift!
These videos is why YouTube is still a beautiful medium.
Your story helped me see how to speak to my past injuries.
Your story just moved me. I’m nothing less than speechless Kyson.
Your story has touched me deeply, and I smiled through my tears.
I hope your video touches those who feel alone and need comfort and help.
I don't have the words to describe how good and poignant this video was for me.
Thank you for hearing my silent screaming.
Thank you for putting your experience and your raw emotion into this gorgeously crafted video to share with the world. It has landed at least on this heart that needed it badly at exactly this moment of my life.
We all have a story to tell, but most never get told. Thank you for telling yours.
I just cried watching this. I didn’t know I was in need of this. It gives me hope.
I love so much how your videos focus on healing, and finding yourself. I’m on the same journey myself.
This one of the most powerful stories I have seen on youtube.
Wow. Brother, so much courage. Thank you.
I wish I had YouTube and your videos forty something years ago.
The house is asleep, I’m crying. This hurts so much.
I didn't realize that trusting myself is what has been happening until seeing this video. Thank you.
You know the feeling we used to call the 'spirit'? Well, I felt it watching this.
This is the most raw and inspiring autobiographical documentary I've honestly ever seen.
I deeply appreciate how bravely you're turning pain into purpose.
You are describing the journey every survivor of complex PTSD takes on the road to healing.
The house is asleep, I’m crying. This hurts so much.
Suffering causes you to examine yourself and to deepen.
I’m very touched by your story.
An incredibly beautiful, stunning, and engaging film! I broke when you arrived back from the airport.
That was so beautiful and heartbreaking. It resonated more than I expected.
Wow. You cannot imagine how listening to your story affected me as a dad.
As a police chaplain I have lots of training in PTSD. I wept when your therapist gave you permission to stop smiling.
I'm not Mormon but this resonates really in every detail.
I could feel you from here, I cried.
This is truly one of the most special, impactful and meaningful videos that I have ever watched on YouTube.
Clearly you were meant to be an artist. You are a source of inspiration.
I can't tell you how much your story moves me.
Your professionalism in the content of your video is beyond words to the point of tears.
Hearing other vulnerable stories also helps me to heal.
I could have listened to the rain in the woods for hours.
What a beautiful example of alchemizing pain into art.
This healing will ripple to so many. thank you for sharing!
You have a gift of connection that is a breath of fresh air.
To survive abuse and awaken to see truth and learn to love yourself is a tragic, yet beautiful journey.
I’m in tears. As a gay man who grew up in a family of very conservative Baptist ministers in Texas—the parts where you spoke about denying yourself for the cause really hit home.
This is truly one of the most special, impactful and meaningful videos that I have ever watched on YouTube.
A balanced video which proves faith is a journey.
I was blindsided by how hard this hit me.
OMG. I have tears rolling down my face. Words fail me. I feel your pain in ways I can't explain.
I'm in tears with no words. I'm so grateful to hear the compassion for yourself in your letter to yourself.
I want to thank you for this video. It really spoke to me and hit some really hard emotions that I am also going through right now.
As a member of the Church of Jesus Christ, I have to say I’m so grateful that you made this. Often times I hear online people just bashing the church and saying as sorts of things but you just spoke your truth.
Your beautiful storytelling is simply touching.
One of the best producers on YouTube. Thats a fact.
This is truly one of the most special, impactful and meaningful videos that I have ever watched on YouTube.
Wow just wow this is beautiful. So well said and beautiful cinematography.
I love your videos. They are my story too.
You are giving us what civilization has lost—to recognize that we are part of nature!
This has helped me so much.
Over 6k comments
and messages
Over 6k comments
and messages
This is the best video I’ve seen on YouTube in the last year.
I am a veteran diagnosed with PTSD. Your video touched me deeply.
This documentary feels worthy of HBO.
Tears are falling. You touched my heart.
Sometimes the algorithm presents content that cuts through the noise.
I’ve been home 35 years and tonight I finally allowed myself to grieve
I cried, in the good way. As a combat vet, I find it tragic that what you describe is disturbingly familiar.
Authenticity that is so rare these days. All from your over-sized heart. I send you thanks, respect and love. Oh, and absolutely beautifully produced.
You have truly given me a long awaited gift!
These videos is why YouTube is still a beautiful medium.
Your story helped me see how to speak to my past injuries.
Your story just moved me. I’m nothing less than speechless Kyson.
Your story has touched me deeply, and I smiled through my tears.
I hope your video touches those who feel alone and need comfort and help.
I don't have the words to describe how good and poignant this video was for me.
Thank you for hearing my silent screaming.
Thank you for putting your experience and your raw emotion into this gorgeously crafted video to share with the world. It has landed at least on this heart that needed it badly at exactly this moment of my life.
We all have a story to tell, but most never get told. Thank you for telling yours.
I just cried watching this. I didn’t know I was in need of this. It gives me hope.
I love so much how your videos focus on healing, and finding yourself. I’m on the same journey myself.
This one of the most powerful stories I have seen on youtube.
Wow. Brother, so much courage. Thank you.
I wish I had YouTube and your videos forty something years ago.
The house is asleep, I’m crying. This hurts so much.
I didn't realize that trusting myself is what has been happening until seeing this video. Thank you.
You know the feeling we used to call the 'spirit'? Well, I felt it watching this.
This is the most raw and inspiring autobiographical documentary I've honestly ever seen.
I deeply appreciate how bravely you're turning pain into purpose.
You are describing the journey every survivor of complex PTSD takes on the road to healing.
The house is asleep, I’m crying. This hurts so much.
Suffering causes you to examine yourself and to deepen.
I’m very touched by your story.
An incredibly beautiful, stunning, and engaging film! I broke when you arrived back from the airport.
That was so beautiful and heartbreaking. It resonated more than I expected.
Wow. You cannot imagine how listening to your story affected me as a dad.
As a police chaplain I have lots of training in PTSD. I wept when your therapist gave you permission to stop smiling.
I'm not Mormon but this resonates really in every detail.
I could feel you from here, I cried.
This is truly one of the most special, impactful and meaningful videos that I have ever watched on YouTube.
Clearly you were meant to be an artist. You are a source of inspiration.
I can't tell you how much your story moves me.
Your professionalism in the content of your video is beyond words to the point of tears.
Hearing other vulnerable stories also helps me to heal.
I could have listened to the rain in the woods for hours.
What a beautiful example of alchemizing pain into art.
This healing will ripple to so many. thank you for sharing!
You have a gift of connection that is a breath of fresh air.
To survive abuse and awaken to see truth and learn to love yourself is a tragic, yet beautiful journey.
I’m in tears. As a gay man who grew up in a family of very conservative Baptist ministers in Texas—the parts where you spoke about denying yourself for the cause really hit home.
This is truly one of the most special, impactful and meaningful videos that I have ever watched on YouTube.
A balanced video which proves faith is a journey.
I was blindsided by how hard this hit me.
OMG. I have tears rolling down my face. Words fail me. I feel your pain in ways I can't explain.
I'm in tears with no words. I'm so grateful to hear the compassion for yourself in your letter to yourself.
I want to thank you for this video. It really spoke to me and hit some really hard emotions that I am also going through right now.
As a member of the Church of Jesus Christ, I have to say I’m so grateful that you made this. Often times I hear online people just bashing the church and saying as sorts of things but you just spoke your truth.
Your beautiful storytelling is simply touching.
One of the best producers on YouTube. Thats a fact.
This is truly one of the most special, impactful and meaningful videos that I have ever watched on YouTube.
Wow just wow this is beautiful. So well said and beautiful cinematography.
I love your videos. They are my story too.
You are giving us what civilization has lost—to recognize that we are part of nature!
This has helped me so much.
